I’ll come back with more than a song

‘It’s time to update your blog Nilla!’

yea… thank those who have reminded me of this.

I think it happens to us sometimes when there’s much in our mind but we just don’t know in what way we can start writing. I think I am now in this situation.

I confess that these days I am a little bit depressed, smart and observant are those people who come to me and ask ‘Nilla are you ok?’ Thank those who listen to me and give me suggestions. I keep calling home lately, don’t know why, calling home is just like taking a piece of panadol, home is always where my strength is from Amen! This makes me feel that I am spoiled though. That’s why I keep telling myself ‘Hey you’re not young anymore! Try to be more independent!’ 

Last night we had a combined lifegroup at uni, it was awesome to see all those familiar faces, as well as some new ones, yea…the whole daniels is growing. Ray’s speech was impressed, he said ‘be content with what you have had’. yea…when I look back, I really find that I have gained a lot in the past 3 years, especially when I see how God has changed my family, from a nearly broken one into a harmonious one, and recovered it from all those financially related problems, till now, everything is running smoothly and well on the right track. I ask myself ’Isn’t this good enough for you? You have even got more than what you expected, why are you still not content with what is in your hands?’ 

While worshiping, I found that everyone was very into it, I was like ‘Nilla, see! All of them are so desperate to seek God, and making their very efforts to grow more and more, how about you? Why you are still standing at where you were and not heading forward and even walking away?’

It’s time to get refreshed and restored! Sometimes the biggest enemy of human is themselves, they only know how toughly they suffer from problems and difficulties, but they never know they themselves are the reasons why problems come, and sometimes they even take some more actions to make the situation worse!

Nilla, wake up ok? Don’t get yourself stuck with what is meaningless! Be what you ought to be, be a Godly Lovely one! Only by this you will smile in the end!

I’m coming back to the heart of worship
And it’s all about You
All about You, Jesus
I’m sorry, Lord, for the things I’ve made it
When it’s all about You
All about You, Jesus

I’ll come back with more than a song Lord! I’m coming back!

Just wanna make myself more sleepy

This is my sleepless night, I don’t even remember how many times I’ve turned over in my bed, there’s no nightmare, but just don’t know why I can’t fall into sleep.

So just get up and do something that can hopefully make myself more sleepy, finally I do the ‘celebrity look-alikes’, which for me is usually quite a unattractive entertainment.

To be honest, I don’t think it’s accurate, just don’t thik I look like any of them.

Anyway, hope it’ll somehow make me more sleepy. OK! continute to sleep!

Just wanna leave some words for myself before going to bed again:  

In ISAIAH 41 verse 10 of the Bible it says”So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” 

In PSALM 27 verse 14 of the Bible it says”Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD”

LORD, I know You understand me and know all the situations, I just wanna commit everything into your hands, I believe that You will strengthen me and support me all the way! Amen!