前进三步，后退两步

To Nilla:

有时候，当你朝着一个目标努力向前的时候，你会忘记自己有多累，你什么也不知道，你只知道你要朝着那个目标走。

并不是因为你有多坚强，有多勇敢，只是因为，你决定了。

有些事情，你不能够用好与坏去形容，因为那本来就不是好与坏的问题。

曾经有人说过：所谓生活，就是前进三步，后退两步。也许你是因为受到挫折而后退，也许你是因为错过了某些东西而后退。

可是我相信，就算是这样，只要你不放弃，你还是一直在前进着。

生活里面，充满选择，你一直都在取舍，每当你选择了一样东西，同时你也要舍弃另一样东西。

可是你知道吗？有些时候你并不需要取舍，因为那本来就不是一个选择，只是一个决定。

这样，你就不会后悔。

‘I can do everything through Him who gives me strength’ – Phi 4: 13

Nilla

04/10/09

Return to blogging

Just realised that i had been having this blog for nearly two years…

From july 07 to now, 21 posts have been produced…not too bad hey:P

Whenever I look back, I am like “TIME FLIES…”, Can’t imagine that my third year in Brisbane has already started, didn’t plan to stay in Australia at all when i first came, but interestingly i am still here now…(LEGALLY^^)

I am now officially in the Real World, just had my graudation 2 weeks ago, wow…that BIG day!So unforgettable, actually i was really touched by everyone, really thank God for this sweet family in Brisbane:)by the way, mum really enjoyed her holiday in Brisbane, she really loves us:)mum, we love you as well:)

Looking for a job at the moment, hmmm….it’s really not easy, but i trust in God for His provision, as i believe that if He calls me to stay, He has already had a wonderful plan for me, and He will also provide me with things that i need.

A lot of things are happening around these days, which make me feel a little bit overwhelmed, but it’s still fine, at least i believe that everything is in control:)

Waiting for a job, waiting for everything to be settled down…the time of waiting is always longer than the time of getting what you are waiting for, but at the end of the day, we will realise that, we have learnt the most from the process, this is the time when God moulds us and grows us. Blessings always come along with obedience.

God sometimes allows us to go through some situations to let us know how much we love Him, doesn’t mean that if we choose to love Him more we will not get what we wish for at all, it means, in all the circumstances, if we first choose to acknowledge our relationship with God, He will acknowledge us as well. So, God i trust in You, as You have never failed me.

Go Nilla!

ConVicTion

I think my faithful blog deserves a faithful update! hehe!

 

Just wanna share something that I have learnt in the cell leadership CDS.

 

I believe that as Christians, especially those who are already in the leadership teams, we all have faith at different levels, but sometimes we just need something to activate the faith inside us, which is our conviction.

 

Our faith determines whether we will step forward for God, but our convictions determine how big and how firm the step is. And I realise that, convictions always come with an intimate relationship with God and our trust in Him. If a stranger came to me and asked me to go somewhere to meet him/her at a specific time, my first response will be: ‘Who are you? Why I should go there? What is gonna be there?’ and I will be having a lot of assumptions in my mind. But if someone who I am very close with, and who I trust a lot, came to me and ask me to meet somewhere at a specific time, I won’t even think about what is gonna happen there, because I trust this person enough and I believe that He/She won’t ask me to do something because of no reason, and more importantly, I know that, this person will be there with me when I go there, and I won’t be alone.

 

Same thing can be applied into our walk with God, if we know Him well and trust Him enough; we will therefore have a strong conviction that He will be there with us no matter where He calls us to. And if we have such a strong conviction, we will be bold enough to take a bigger step for Him.

 

I was reminded of the verse in Romans 8: 31 of the Bible. It says ‘What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?’ yes, if we have a strong conviction that He is with us, nothing will stop us from stepping forward for Him.

Time is flying

Haven’t been updating my blog for ages. When i was looking for my first entry, i realised that i’ve been having this blog for more than a year. Time is flying faster and faster, 2008 seems to be the fastest ever year in my life, can’t imagine that i am getting 23 soon. But praise God that my skin condition hasn’t changed that much in the past few years.hehe…

It’s dangerous when you look back but you can’t see any difference between the ‘current you’ and the ‘past you’. But thank God that now when i look back i can really see the changes in myself. Girls always like recalling the old memory, sometimes i do this as well, thinking of all those things happened in the past, and the people in the past, i used to get emotional easily when i was thinking of the past, but now i think i can face it with a smile:)because when i see my past, i can also see the growth in me.

Didn’t think of staying in Australia at all before i came, didn’t think of being involved in the church ministries at all, didn’t think of being a shepherd at all, didn’t think of leading Praise and Worship in LG at all. But now i am doing all of these, and i am happy with all of these. We always have a plan for our lives, but God’s plan always convince ours. When i look back i understand why God brought me to Brisbane at that time. He has a plan for me to come here, and a reason for me to stay here.

Getting busier and busier these days, things in hands never seem to be less, that’s good though, that means i can do more for God:)

It’s true that when we grow our challenges grow as well, i used to find someone to talk to when i get stressed, but i realised that not everyone could understand me all the time. Instead of looking for encouragement and comfort from somewhere else, now i choose to spend some time with God first, because He is always the first aider in all situations:) He makes me understand and makes me smile again:)

Make the best of life

Before writing anything, i want to mourn for those people who lost their lives in the ‘5.12′ SiChuan earthquake in China. May God’s mercy and love fall upon this land; may He heal all those broken hearts; may all the people in China and even the whole world get together as a unity, to support, to love and to help one another.

We are so small, our strength is so little. We thought we are smart, capable and strong, because human has brought a lot of inventions and made millions of changes to the world, some people are even trying to change the other planets, but can we control the world? Can we overcome the nature? Do we have the power to stop the earthquake, the flood, and the cyclone when they come? We may think we are creators of things in this world, but, how many people will realise that, actually we are not the creators, we are only one of the creations. The control is not in us, but in God, who is the real creator of this world.

Everything happens for a purpose, sometimes we may not understand it, because we may only see a piece of puzzle, but God, who sees the whole picture, will control everything. Whoever follows Him, will understand His purpose in the end.

When this kind of things happen to us, some may feel sad, some may feel hopeless, some may feel painful, some may feel hurt, but i think everyone has learnt a lesson from it. People who didn’t love each other enough, may learn to love; people who didn’t cherish their beloved enough, may learn to cherish; people who didn’t care for the others enough, may learn to care for one another; people who are used to rely on their own strength, may realise that they are so small in this world, because an earthquake can ruin everything that they have, just in a few seconds. How little we are? How short our lives are?

Today i got an email, which said ‘Life is short, break the rules, forgive quickly, kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably, and never regret anything that made you smile.’ This message asks people to make the best of lives. So as Christians, how can we make the best of our lives? Are we loving all the people around? Can we see the values of them? Are we making a difference to impact the others? Are we having the desire to learn from God? Are we always responding to Him?

Life is short for those people who don’t get the salvation, but it will be everlasting for those people who receive the eternal gift. We have got this gift. But God doesn’t ask us to keep it only for ourselves, He asks us to share it with the people around, so that more and more people will be saved.

Sometimes we are very busy with a lot of other stuffs, we thought we are committed enough to church, we thought we are responsive enough, but we may forget about the most basic thing in christian lives, which is to share the gospel. The other day while i was walking in uni, a Korean girl approached me and tried to share gospel with me, she didn’t know i am a christian, so she tried her best to use english to start a conversation with me, she spoke very slowly,i guess she’s not that used to english, and when i told her that i am also a christian, she’s very happy, from her eyes i could see the joy, which was very pure and innocent. I was very inspired by this girl, even thought her english is not that outstanding, she still stands up to share the gospel, because she chooses to respond to God.

I remember Pastor Wenan once shared a sentence ‘the more willing we are in responding to God, the more willing we are to be moved by God.’ We are called to be His followers and disciple makers.